As soon as forever is through, i'll be over you.
"Hermia don't!", i said. I was too late. Hermia stab herself in the stomach due to depression. I guess she thinks too much about her love life. I know it's hard to handle in losing someone you love. But it's parts and parcels of life. My life is full of regrets in accepting Demetrius' love. I am in a dilemma in what to do. Before i could finish up my thoughts about this. Hermia gave her life up. I feel so guilty. God, help me. I don't know what to do next. Sadness surrounds me. My bestfriend did something rash right in front of me. I couldn't control my tears. She should share her feelings with me, but she just keep it to herself. Although i'm reluctant to let you go, i still have to, Demetrius. I don't want to be the cause of her death. I don't want any people to hate me. Can my life get any better? Losing my bestfriend, and having to give up my love is totally not a happy ending. Sorry Demetrius and Hermia, i've let the both of you down. Rest in peace, Hermia. I appreciate everything that you have done for me. I love you, my bestfriend. Sorry for everything.

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow--
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me--
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met--
In silence I grieve,
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

The best way to mend a broken heart is time and spending time with my loving girlfriend. But, she's no longer there. Just remember, it's fate.

Labels: Epilogue- Nurashidah.

I love Demetrius.
Being with Demetrius is what i wish for since the first day i laid my eyes on him. He's a charming man, i can say. I don't know why i'm in love with him. I think it's his character that makes me attracted to him. I can't believe this is happening to me, really. I can't believe Demetrius loves me. I thought everything was just a dream. I thought that none of this will happen to me. People say i should be happy to have Demetrius loving me after much sacrifices i made. But something's just not right. Something disturbing. The guilt. Even though Demetrius loves me, i feel some kind of guilt engulfing me. Although i should be happy towards the fact, I feel guilty towards Hermia. Hermia has to suffer because of me. Hermia and Demetrius looks great together, but i can't accept the fact that Demetrius chose her at first. I think i'm selfish. I did not make an effort to put myself in other people's shoes. I only think about myself, my happiness, and nonetheless my sadness. I'm sorry Hermia, but i love Demetrius so much. I cannot live without him, seriously. I hope you understand. And i'll try understanding your situation in losing Demetrius. I'll pray that everything will be back to normal. So that everything is fair to you and Demetrius. God, help me...

Labels: Act 5. Nurashidah

How do things always seem to figure themselves out?
Something smells fishy around here. The last I remember of the day's events is arguing with Hermia through the forest, being angry at the two gentlemen and Hermia for mocking me. We all stormed off in different directions and I suddenly found myself alone, where I laid my pretty head down to sleep. And as sleep engulfed me, I hoped and prayed that everything will be fixed in the morning, that everything will make sense again. It strangely seems as if someone was there, right beside me - watching over me, at that time, and answered my prayers. I could swear that I was physically alone the night before, yet, when the break of dawn came around, I was awoke and found myself in Demetrius' arms with the other happy couple beside me!

Stanger events have not happened to me in this life. But thankfully I don't seem to be the only one who felt like I dreamt the whole thing up. The others felt confused as well, even to the extent of hallucinating that the duke and Hippolyta was with us at one point in time!

Well, what I'm most pleased about is that Demetrius has changed his mind and claims he is in love with me! Claim, some of you might say, is not a good word to use for love. And why?, and how did it happen? I wouldn't say I'm not in the least bit curious, but... I've been waiting for this all my life. So why, I ask of you, should I doubt his confession?

The course of true love never did run smooth...

Labels: Act 4. Joo Hwee.

Crossing boundaries and sharp nails. Yikes.
There's nothing left in me other than pure anger, and confusion. And others you should know by heart. Not only is Lysander persistently, annoyingly following me around claiming his true love for me (yeah, right), Demetrius is in the ring now too. This is mockery at it's finest ! I don't find this the least bit amusing at all. Oh, so they have a Plan B now ? Save it all. Sure, I still do love Demetrius. That whenever I see his smile, which can probably melt the whole antarctic ice cap, it sends my heart to heaven. That I would always wish upon the dead stars to be stuffed inside his rotten heart, forever. But this, this is too much. I don't wish to be in this game you play. Can someone please press the 'forfeit' button ?

Hermia, ah, Hermia. Was she a part of this too ? Why, fair Hermia ? Sharp pains channels through my fingers at the thought of that. Was our friendship just nothing to you ? You're acting just like the rest of them boys. How can you take this so lightly ? But ah, I'm to blame huh ? Whatever did I do ? I was never a part of this, neither was I the mastermind of this cruel plot. I don't want to resort to violence, fair maiden. I believe, despite the acts we've been displaying lately, that we can solve this in a mature, civilized way.

So many questions left unanswered, accompanying my dreams tonight. I'm sure these thoughts aren't meant for my mind to ponder, but my heart to answer. Only now have I realized, how complex this machine is. The machine God created for us to love - the heart. Aren't you just anticipating how this is all going to end ?

Infinite X's and O's

Labels: Act 3. Aqilah.

Minus one, Plus one.
And there he goes again. The feeling of rejection hit me like a knife through my heart, stabbed repeatedly. I'm tired of this chase, falling deeper each second. I've went through tough times and times when depression comes looming like persistent dark clouds on a December day. But why can't I ever get used to this feeling ? Paralyzed, yes, that's the word I'm looking for. Am I not fair enough, Demetrius ? What is it that Hermia has that I don't ? I can give you all, just name it. All I'm asking for is to be a part of you. I crave your presence, only every tomorrow. Let us be what we were back then. Oh, weren't we content with our lives. Weren't you ?

How dare he, Lysander ! Good lord, I'm practically going through a mid-life crisis, and there he goes blabbering the unexplained. A person (me, to be precise) can only handle gibberish to a tiny, weeny extent. Why, he's vowing his love for me. Bullshit ! Pardon the cussing, it strangely took a load off my shoulders, just a notch. If Demetrius doesn't want me (I cringe internally at that very thought), what more you, Lysander ! It's basic logic. And what about Hermia ? Whatever happened to your promises, loyalty .. love ? It's not me you want. It's Hermia, grasp that. Love's like a math equation, only worse. This is all so confusing. I need a kit kat.

By far, the most daunting day ever.
Infinite X's and O's.

Labels: Act 2. Aqilah.

The man of my dreams, or my bestfriend? I choose the former.
I stumbled upon Hermia's presence today. Thy lady told me a secret that I really can't keep. Fair Hermia told me that to the woods they will flee, Lysander and thee. When dawn breaks two days from now, her romance with Lysander will no longer be in Athen's history. Lysander being her only love, will be enough for them both... even in some place surreal. In Athen's gates, they will no longer be. As much as I wish them happiness, why can't it be me. O to my fate, I'm resigned.

We've been friends for long, Hermia and I, yet I feel resentful she has the love of two perfectly fine gentleman. I couldn't care less for Lysander, but how dare she! How dare she bewitch Demetrius, which I have to say once was mine. And mocking, was she?, when she called me fair! Ironically, even though I'm known as the fairest in Athens, Demetrius would only look at Hermia's fair! How fair is that? I ask of you. Everything I do is rubbish in his eyes, yet everything Hermia touches seemingly turns to gold! Therefore, I have to do justice for myself, revealing Hermia's secret will surely make me seem more pleasing in Demetius' eye!

Demetrius' love is one thing I can't resist. So dear Hermia, forgiveness, is all I beg of you.

Labels: Act 1. Joo Hwee.

Then. One fateful day, i heard the bad news. The news i knew would tear us apart, those words that would take my soul away, those words.. Which told me that you would be leaving me.. Once again. Hermia's father wanted MY love, to marry her, my bestfriend.

Yes of course, it wouldn't be much of a problem if you loved only me. Well sadly, you love her. There's no past tense for love, for once you start loving someone. You never stop. I can't bear the facts of reality, can't bear that it wasn't love. Can't bear the memories of that facade. That lie, once so sweet, that blinded me. Once again, i fell into the never ending hole of depression just like before. Except this time, you didn't bother about me. I watched him, once my love, fight for my bestfriend's hand in marriage. Line by line, scene by scene.. The story went on, i started living in self delusion. The better things were for D, the worse it was for me.. Being overwhelmed by sorrow, i went back to the pond. Back to where we first started out..

Well even though everything's absolutely fine now, the hurt and trauma is still there. And forever it remains, just like a scar.. This is,
the reminiscence of our once shallow and unworthy past.

Labels: Prologue - Part 2. Liling.

Demetrius oh Demetrius~
When we first set eyes on each other, it was love at first sight. Can't bear to leave traces of our precious memories behind..
On that faithful evening, daddy brought me to the ball along with him hoping for me to find my soul mate, but we left despondent as the princes there were attached. We were both in a bad mood and then for no rhyme or reason dad threw his temper at me and told me it was my fault for not bothering to polish myself up. Hence, with an broken heart i ran to the pond near the park and weeped bitterly. Sadness engulfed me, pushed me to my limits, to where my heart, body, soul and mind couldn't bear. I wanted to give up..

A few moments later i heard a manly yet gentle voice asking me whether i was fine, that was you, my love. You daringly settled your arms against my shoulders, calming me down and assuring me that all would be fine. We were strangers, yet.. It felt so good with your presence surrounding me. You let me feel secure, and everything else that i thought i would never have the chance to experience. Your words, though few, helped lift my world up and pulled me through that little storm of mine. Time flew by and unknowingly, we sat by the pond till daybreak, by then we had to part and i started missing your presence.

Day and night, i would sit by the pond, wishing and praying hard that thy dearest would appear magically. After a torturous month or so, my long awaited wish was finally granted. Yes. It was you, thy love, right before my very eyes. I knew my heart, and no, it did not ever want you to disappear neither did it want to hang on to life without you. We gave each other a chance, and i gave you that fragile heart of mine. Slowly, we walked through the paths of life together. Through sadness or happiness, darkness or light.

Labels: Prologue - Part 1. Liling.

Helena, without her Demetrius.
People never really lose hope. Damaged, through and through

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MSND4LIT Demetrius Bottom Hermia Lysander Oberon

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Contributed by Aqilah, Rashidah, Liling, Joohwee, Jiamin of 3E5